Monday, 31 July 2017


Dear 10 year old Alicia,

Welcome to the double digit life and the last year of being in primary school or junior school, whatever the hell the thing is where 10 year olds go to school. Enjoy the hell out of that last. Go all out for the last year of primary school; like the world book day dress up day, don't go as a St. Trinians just because every other girl in year 6 is going as one. Like girl, this is your last chance to dress up as what ever the hell you want. Dear 10 year old me, don't follow the crowd and be unique. 

You love to dance, so keep at it. Keep going with ballet, modern and performing arts, as you love it. Don't give up when you get to 15 because it has become a core and has got too darn expensive. In latter years you will release that £140 for 10 weeks of ballet lessons is pretty cheap in comparison to that concert ticket you have just brought; or that leather jacket you will probably only wear once or twice. Do all the shows you can do; whether that is at **** dance school; youth theatre or with high school. You get that same buzz as when you were 4 as a fish dancing to the little mermaid on stage for the very first time. Dear 10 year old me, do what you love and don't stop because of things that will not be important in a few years down the line. 

Don't worry about the spots that are already coming up on your face. Yes, the teenage years will be full of tears and worries because you have spots on your face. It's fine, skin care treatments are great when the hospital never get back to you about a medical acne treatment that kinda scared the shit out of you anyway. You will reach 20 and your skin will look the best it has been since you were 10. No little white heads or red horrible bumps that cause much pain. Yes you will have some scars but you will learn to love them, as that is who you are. You will probably get upset when you are 12 or 13 and boys start calling you names about your spots, but guess what them same boys are going no where in there life (as observed on Facebook). Dear 10 year old me, don't let the spots on your face ruin your confidence; make up is great and a decent skin care routine is amazing. 

On the subject of school, don't worry about your year 5 teacher who said you had no imagination and wouldn't get anywhere in life. You will prove that fucking women wrong. You will go on get A's in English language and you will always be in the middle or top set for all your subjects throughout high school. You may not get the best a-level results, but sometimes things are meant to happen for a reason. If you got the a-level results you needed for a certain university you would be in a very different place right now and you probably wouldn't be moving to Canada in 4 weeks for your year abroad. School can be shit. High school can be a bore, but you will miss it. You will miss your GCSE science class when basically all the girls where in the same class for 6 hours a week and although most of the time all you did was chat and have a laugh and then be teased about Justin Bieber from the boys on the table as well, you will do so well in your GCSE exams and also miss them times when you leave high school. Dear 10 year old me, don't listen to what primary school teachers are saying because you will prove them wrong and trust me that's the best feeling. 

Over the next 10 years you will be hurt, emotionally (damn boys) and physically (damn horse riding) but that's all about growing up. You will experience new things and do things that 10 year old you would not imagine. You will achieve a hell of a lot in 10 years, and probably a lot more than you have already. You will make your parents proud; you will learn to drive; you will get a job; you will go to university; you will start to explore the rest of the world out there. You will also do things that you probably don't want to tell your parents or grandparents as they may want to disown you, but they will probably forgive you when they remember they were your age once. Dear 10 year old me, your teenage years will be some of the best of your life, you may not find the man you are going to spend the rest of your life with but you will make some incredible memories and make some incredible friends along the way and still be friends with people who you are friends with today. 

So dear 10 year old me, there will be times when life sucks and there will be times when life is amazing and you don't want that moment to end. You will give up stuff and start new stuff, but being 10 is great when you have no worries and social media isn't a thing of such. Like does Facebook or Twitter even exist?

Dear 10 year old me you are only just getting started in your life, so enjoy it to the max. 

Love 20 year old me x 

Love Alicia x 

A little side note. I accidentally disconnected my blog from bloglovin which resulted in me losing about 800 followers, so if you could please go and give my blog some lovin' over on bloglovin! Thank you! 


Monday, 24 July 2017


Sometimes I forget about the things I am grateful for; the blessings no matter how big or small; or the things that bring happiness into my life. It is something that is often over looked, and I no for certain that I am one of them people who just forget to think about all the great things in my life right now and how they should NOT be over shadowed by the negative things you would rather forget. 

Right now I am grateful for quite a few things, but here are just 5 things that I am grateful for right now. 

1. My Parents - Yes we should all be grateful of our parents, but sometimes I forget how much they do still do for me, even at 20. It's the small things like doing my laundry or very kindly paying for my car insurance whilst I go off to Canada in August; or just simply putting a roof over my head. 

2. My Skin - Right now my skin is probably the best it has ever been since I was about 9. Yes, I was that kid that had white heads as a nine year old who hadn't started her period yet and no one else had a giant white head on their chin. Now, my skin is basically clear. Not sure if it is drinking 2 and a half litres of water a day or finally taking the time to invest in my skincare routine. 

3. Live Music - I have always enjoyed live music; whether that is a theatre show or a concert. At the end of June and the very beginning of July I was very lucky to see Justin Bieber from the front row and from the second row, and that honestly brings me so much happiness and I'm truly grateful for that experience. 

4. My own time - It's nice to have a few days off of work and focus on me, rather than others. It's nice to work out; give myself a mini facial by invading my growing collection of sheet masks and other masks; actually bothering with my nails and finally getting my brows done again. Also grateful for the time to binge watch Netflix and not feel guilty. 

5. Summer - It may sound stupid, but a bit of sun and the warmer weather instantly lifts my mood. Perhaps that is because I am a summer baby and my heart probably lies in some beautiful place with beautiful beaches. The summer in England can be equally as good, especially leaving by the beach, which I don't take much advantage of, but it is nice to know it's only down the road. Also, I would be very grateful if the summer sun and weather could last a bit longer, please. 

What are you grateful for? 

Love Alicia x 

A little side note. I accidentally disconnected my blog from bloglovin which resulted in me losing about 800 followers, so if you could please go and give my blog some lovin' over on bloglovin! Thank you! 

Friday, 21 July 2017


Okay, I would actually love to say that I have a dressing table, but the top of my chest of draws will have to do for now. Hopefully one day I will have this amazing instagramable, everyone wants my dressing table, type of dressing table, if you know what I mean.  Anyway, my white chest of draws from Argos will have to do at the moment. Although, who knew how much dust would acquire on white furniture? Anyway, back to the point; lets take a little exploration of my current dressing table set up!

My 'dressing table' is the place where I keep everything from make up brushes, my favourite lipsticks and my perfume collection; as well as a couple of things to kinda of make it look a bit more prettier.


Wednesday, 19 July 2017


Two weeks ago today I left my teenage years behind me and entered the decade of twenty. TWENTY. Okay, I feel slightly old and also kinda really fucking excited about being twenty. Although nothing has really changed yet, but I have a kinda great feeling that twenty will be pretty fucking amazing. I mean I move to Canada in 5 and a half weeks, which yes i'm shitting myself for, but get me on that plane on 27th August, because Canada i'm coming for ya.

Being twenty so far has been kinda meh though. I mean I think I have spent most of it at work, dealing with customers and the great British public, which is either a frill or you annoy me so much but I can not say that to your face. Except for going to London on my twentieth and going for a meal with my mates to celebrate being the last one to enter the decade of twenty, twenty has been work; binge watching 13 Reasons Why; and spending every other living moment in Purpose Tour merch. If you haven't brought a PT hoodie, then you are missing out on the comfort that I am currently living in. Like yes, I feel like a teddy bear. Can I say that being a twenty year old?

Last year, just before my 19th birthday I wrote a list of 20 things I wanted to do before I turned twenty. So, now lets see if I have actually managed to complete any of these. 

1. Get a car ✔️
My little silver or some people think it is more of a grey colour, Corsa does me the job. It has got me to university and back; work and back; and other stuff and back. My little 1 litre corsa that really doesn't have much power was brought on the 31st July last year on its 7th birthday. It was actually registered on the 31st July 2009. 

2. Talk to more people 
I feel like this one is a hard one to judge. Like yes I have spoken to people throughout the year that I had never spoken to last year. Idk. 

At least 3 times a week I have been doing a youtube video because the gym still scares me. Blogilates, Lucy Wydham Read and Popsugar Fitness are a few of my favourites and I feel like I have become fitter. I also joined Lacrosse at university and at the beginning of the year I couldn't run around the astro pitch without getting out of breathe and by the end of the year I could run around it without getting out of breathe. So I guess I have become fitter, maybe. 

4. lighten up more 
Again, kinda hard to judge. 

5. learn to not care what people think 
This is probably something that will come with getting older and at the moment I still care about what people think of me. 

6. Book flights to Australia 
Nope, nope, nope. Maybe for 2018 or 2019. One day I will go, but it's not the right time at the moment. 

7. Be more adventurous with what I have for dinner ✔️
No more just brown rice and sweet potatoes for me, probably because I have been living at home in my second year and my parents buy me food. 

8. Go on some random weird room trip 

9. Get a least a 2:1 in my second year of university ✔️
I was like 2% away from a first, so I did get a 2:1 it was just one module that let me down from getting that first. 

10. Trek America 
I ordered the brouche if that counts?

11. Go to Ireland 
No, but I did go to Cardiff and Majorca. 

12. Go to Buckingham Palace 

13.  Do more photography 
Well I have posted a lot more on instagram this year then any other year and they haven't all been selfies or mirror selfies. 

14. Take part in more sports ✔️
See answer to point 3. 

15. Really focus on my blog photography and content 
Okay, I have sucked with my blog this year. Kinda feel out of love with it, despite a name change. Kinda been too busy. 

16. Sign up to learn a new language ✔️
I did sign up for French at university, but the class was at like 8pm on a Monday and yeah I wasn't going to do that. 

17. Have at least a day a month without social media 

18. Read more books 

19. Learn how to save ✔️
My savings account kinda looks healthy right now, considering I am a student and spend a hefty amount on ASOS. 

20. See a horror film 
Twenty years of age and still not seen a horror film. 

Yes, I understand that I have failed most of my list of 20 things to do before I am 20, but there is plenty of other things that happened in my last year of being a teenager as well that I probably wasn't expecting. 

Some of my personal highlights include: 

It's kinda crazy knowing that in just under 6 weeks I will going to live in Canada for a year. The process has been kinda long, but I am looking forward to it. Maybe next year my 'twenty' round up will be all about Canada. 

2. Seeing Justin Bieber four times. 
Four incredible concerts. This time last year I had two concerts planned; one for 11th October and the other for 28th November. On the way to the 28th November concert I managed to buy one pit ticket for the concert. So that night I was second row and Justin touched my hand and it was like the best experience ever. Then in December, they announced shows in Cardiff and London, so obviously I brought tickets. I got pit again in Cardiff, which was just incredible, even after the 5 and a half hour wait, but I was front row and during Baby we were all so lit and Justin just looked at us like 'thats my real supporters down there'. I also got eye contact during Hold Tight on 28th November and the show in Cardiff as well. I was also third row for the show in Hyde Park as well. Can you tell I am kinda a belieber? 

3. Taking part in Derby Day 2017 
This is something i regret from first year of university; never joining a sports club. In my first year derby day was held at Essex, whereas this year it was held at UEA. So as a member of the Lacrosse club, I went up to Norwich with the rest of the team. We lost, but honestly it is one of my highlights from second year. I got kinda drunk and don't really remember the coach journey back to campus or the pre drinks in towers. 

A few weeks ago I wrote about my little family trip to Majorca. It was a country that I haven't been back too since I was 5, so it was great to go back. It was also nice to relax after finishing second year of university and basically working full time since my exam in May. 

Okay this is kinda a long post. 
I'm just going to leave it there for now. 

Also, I wrote a post about 20 things I have learnt in 20 years, so go and have a nose at that, if you want. 

Love Alicia x 

A little side note. I accidentally disconnected my blog from bloglovin which resulted in me losing about 800 followers, so if you could please go and give my blog some lovin' over on bloglovin! Thank you! 

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